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I Think I Get It Now...

Welp, I saw the Michael Jackson movie today. It was kind of a refresher for me on this man's origins. He was a genius, a once in a lifetime, generational talent. He wasn't weird, he was a kid from Gary, Indiana that never got to be one until much later in his life. He was a beautiful soul, like an angel come down from Heaven. Like all wonderful things, Michael wasn't long for this world before God allowed a hater to take him out of it and return back to Him. It wouldn't be any less of a fate for any of God's Chosen Ones, which I sometimes wonder if I might be. It explains why I've lived the way I have up until now. I finally understand why some people were placed on this Earth by Him, why they're put upon so often. Pressure creates diamonds I guess. I think I understand why normals like me were placed here too. We're not ordinary people. We're set aside by the Most High. We aren't like everyone else I get it now. Might just be me hearing what I w...
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About Yesterday...

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Yesterday was your birthday. It's been almost 30 years since God took you and Jeremy back to Himself, and it still hurts. All the things I wanted to teach him as the last Grandchild of the Braxton Clan. Maybe help him to be a better man than I've been until now, and I'll get that chance. I sucked it up and came out to the cemetery and almost lost it, but rehashing my personal Hell was something I HAD to do. The only regret I have is that it had to be this way. I've always been a sensitive child, so one more person to relate to hurts mre than I can say. Don't get me wrong, I'm glad you're with Grandma and Grandaddy and now Uncle Benny, but I'm torn in this way. Jeremy is getting to know the family he didn't get to and doesn't have to get sick or experience grief like we did. I think I'm a bit jealous as well as lonely, but God needed you more. I understand. We're ok, albeit fractured because the glue that held us together has l...
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